Part of growing up has been unlearning and learning a lot of things that I knew to be ingrained values and habits. A few weeks ago I was clucking away with my sister as we usually do and she unlocked a memory for me. Its dumb how easily we forget things tbh, well, maybe just me lol. She reminded me how mean I used to be a few years ago, I'm still a prickly bitch don't get me wrong but I think I've got it down to manageable levels nowadays.
I remember how id always have an answer for all the dumb questions, quick to curse anyone out, ready to claw at their faces at any given opportunity, was I a cat? Yes! And not a cuddly one :0
What changed you might ask? Well I stopped acting that way with myself lol. It took a lot and still takes a lot on some days not to be mean to yourself but it's a process, like cleaning. I don't like to do it all the time but someone's gotta do it! And trust me, you’ve got to do it. I’ve learnt that stopping the negative voices in your head and replacing them with kind loving ones isn't something you win at, nor is it a destination. It's a long journey dedicated to yourself!
I don't know a lot but what I have learnt on my journey is that breathing well is the first step to controlling your emotions. Just 10 minutes of breathwork can set you up with a more balanced and grounded day.
It's okay if things don't work out the way you wanted, don't get too attached to an outcome, things will happen the way they're supposed to and all the complaining in the world won't stop it.
Give yourself room to mess up. It's your first time doing this human thing so it's okay to take time to learn things and fail at them, you can always try again.
Till next time!
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